This has been a rough week for me. Normally I can handle all the pressure that life throws my way, yet this week I couldn't shake things off the way that i normally do. Reagan was sick this past weekend. Saturday was when i noticed when she wasn't feeling good. It started off with a high fever and she was up all night screaming. It continued until Monday and finally the medicine I was giving her kicked in and her fever went away. Tuesday she was still a bit fussy so I just chocked it up to the thought that she was probably teething.
As i have talked about in my last blog post, we are TTCing for baby #4. This was month 3/4. I say 3/4 because the first month (november) we were not actually TTCing. I was tracking things like when we baby danced and when i thought i was "ovulating" yet it wasn't until the middle of November that we started TTCing for real. That being said It is cycle 3 for real trying but cycle 4 if you include that first month. I know confusing right? Its been a bit difficult for me because I have never tried to get pregnant, its always just happened, and I have been trying and its not happening.
This month we, or should I say I, have taken a more laid back approach. I still tracked when we baby danced but I did not take any OPKs this month. We didn't use anything to help "aid" us, the only thing I did was continue to take my prenatal vitamins and drink lots of water (and clean up my eating a little bit.) Last month my cycle was very off track. It was only 25 days long (which is very short for me) and I ovulated around cycle day 13/14 (which again is really early for me).
Back to what I was saying before I started ranting :) This week was also the week I assumed I would be ovulating, and just from paying attention to my body I know that I did. The problem was Juan left for San Fransisco Tuesday so my chances of conceiving this month are not very high. We baby danced the night before he left yet I don't think I ovulated until Thursday, so thats like what 4 days in between when we BD and when I ovulated. So I was feeling a bit emotional about this because its just one more month that I have failed, or what feels like I have failed. So as I was sulking in my own sorrow with Juan out of town and a fussy baby, things just happened to get worse.
Reagan woke up Tuesday night and with a rash on her belly. She was up most of the night and when we officially woke up in the morning (and i say officially because we really didn't get any sleep) i realized the rash had spread onto her back. I gave her some medicine and after I picked up Peyton from school went went to the hospital to get her checked out. After almost 6 hours there we got discharged without any real answers. The did notice that she had an ear infection so they prescribed her with an antibiotic.
She was up most of the night Wednesday and Thursday her rash was even worse. It was all over her face and neck, all of her scalp, her arms, and legs, even her fingers and toes. One of the doctors said it might be scarlet fever because she had an X-ray done and they noticed fluid in her lungs so they thought she has strep throat. I did some research, which I do NOT recommend googling things, you are basically even dying or are fine and its "normal".
As I was trying to figure out what to do, if we needed to go back to the hospital or just ride it out, my Mom called me and told me that they were taking my Dad to the hospital because he was having severe chest pains.
Its a lot to deal with when you have all these things on your plate, some physical some emotional, and its even harder to deal with when your support system (aka your spouse) is out of town.
We made it thru Thursday. My Dad is okay, they did some testing and his heart was stressed but it wasn't a heart attack, thank goodness. Reagan has gotten a bit better. She actually slept thru the night last nigh (Thursday) and has gotten her appetite back. Her rash is still their but its not as red or as rough as it was yesterday, and Juan is finally on his way home.
It was a week for the books but we made it thru!
This brings me to my highlight of the week!
I posted a video on my Youtube this morning. It was talking about what was going on with Reagan. I was kinda worried about the reaction I would get because I wasn't my optimistic self. Yet the love and support that I received was so amazing that I cannot thank everyone enough!
It was a reminder of why I post videos and why I share my journey because their are other people that I can help and in return their are so many wonderful people who help me!!!
So if you are reading this, thank you and I am so blessed to have you with me on my journey!!!
XOXO-Alex
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